This is my first book by Rebecca Makkai, and it definitely won’t be my last. The protagonist, Bodie, is a messy, complicated woman—professor, podcaster, and mother—returning to the boarding school where she spent four formative years. As a teenager, she began by trying to fit in, then found acceptance with a small circle of friends who saw her for who she really was.
Her sophomore-year roommate, Thalia, was everything Bodie thought she wasn’t—rich, popular, beautiful. Though not close friends, there was mutual respect between them. When Thalia is killed during their senior year, the tragedy leaves deep scars. Years later, Bodie returns to teach at the same school, and one of her students chooses Thalia’s murder as the subject of a podcast. The story unfolds as a letter Bodie writes to a man she suspects had a significant role in Thalia’s death.
Back then, Omar, a Black athletic director, was convicted of the crime. Through Bodie’s eyes, the book explores racism, abuse, class, and gender norms—issues that continue to shape contemporary America. What I particularly liked was that Makkai doesn’t make Bodie fit neatly into any box. We humans are complex, and how we react when something touches us personally often differs from how we think we’d respond in theory.
The mystery of Thalia’s death forms the spine of the story, but what lingers is the reflection on memory, justice, and the messy gray areas between right and wrong. It’s not easy to write a novel that captures the pulse of our times while keeping readers fully engaged, but Makkai manages it beautifully.
The hell of imprisonment isn’t the terrible food, it’s the lack of choice of food. It isn’t the cold, wet floor, it’s that you can’t choose another place to stand. It isn’t the confinement so much as the fact of never running, never getting in your car and speeding off, as Omar loved to do.
My only nitpick: there are moments when too many societal issues crowd the narrative. Focusing on fewer might have given the story even more punch. Still, this is a powerful, thought-provoking read—one I’ll be thinking about for a while.
Anna Bushi 